Saturday, November 9, 2013

Sadness Is Unavoidable, Like The Winter

I'm afraid I'm very confused. I can't make up my mind on so many things.

I'm also incredibly sad. This morning driving to work a couple things just popped into my mind and I'm not the cheery person I woke up as. It's aggravating because as much as I'm trying not to let these things bother me, they sneak up in there and I can't avoid it.

On a happier note, CHRISTMAS IS COMING. I can't wait its so exciting. I have my Christmas Radio up on Pandora right now. It may be way too early for it but I can't agree less. Last year it felt like Christmas came and went way too fast and now it's right on schedule. It feels right this year.

On a completely different note, I keep having these dreams about this guy and its totally weird because he's actually on my mind but there's like a whole back story to it and it's a complete shit show and I haven't actually interacted with him in like a year or so I guess. It's really weird.

Till The Sun Sets,

Sarah Jean 

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Closure Fuck You

Can I get some new friends? Please. Please Please?! 

So I guess I got closure, but I don't really know if it's even that. I hate inconsiderate people. Like go fuck yourself because I have thought of you before everything I did, and kept you in mind before I went and blew you off for like ever. I can't keep how frustrated I am inside,Its aggravating to have a friendship turn to shit and all you can say is 'I'm done and over it, bye'?! WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. 

This is why I have trust issues and don't want to make new friends. This is why I hurt. You just joined the list of people that I eternally hate and yes hate is a strong word and so is fuck. So fuck you.

Maybe there will be an actual post tonight because obviously this is just a little mini-rant.
Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Thursday, October 17, 2013

We Meet At An Odd Time

Wow. Look at this, the sun is still up and there's another post coming tonight probably. I was just so aggravated that I needed to vent and no one is ever around to listen.

And I have tons of time to kill since I took an exam today and totally bombed it, leaving the classroom ashamed and scorn. I'll get over it eventually, I'm not sure my mom will though.

I'm back to gossiping again. About all the people who hate me. I can honestly say I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. And I'm so aggravated (and kinda hungry to be honest) that this is happening again. Is there something so mentally wrong with me as a person? Because I can't fathom why this has become a very obvious pattern. God, what the fuck?! Am I a shitty friend? Did I forget something? WHY ARE YOU EVEN AVOIDING ME RIGHT NOW?! Confrontation has never been one of my strong suits and when I try to do it, I do a shitty job and let my emotions get in the way and all of the sudden I become Sassy Bitch. Sorry, just can't help it.

I've been so torn down that if I had problems making friends before, it's even worse now. It hurts. And it may have started with one single shitty unforgiving person, but I'm just too sensitive to it all now. Everything anyone does hurts a little deeper and makes me want to sit in a corner and cry.

Because I'm not good enough.

And maybe it's bullshit, but I don't hear anyone else telling me otherwise.


Fuck You Very Much,

Sarah Jean.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

The Old Is Fading Away, Again

It's been awhile my nonexistent viewers. I've been busy as funny as that sounds. Busy with school work that I'm already getting behind in because Netflix keeps calling my name. Like a long lost lover, I can't resist. 

Tumblr consumes me all night and day. Hitting post limit isn't as difficult as it seems. I'm currently waiting for midnight to continue. I've also been watching new (to me) TV shows. Like Arrow,Supernatural, The Vampire Diaries, Fringe, The Originals, Hawaii 5-0, Criminal Minds and occasionally Impractical Jokers (because you don't have to follow that to understand it).

I've taken another job working under family. It's long hours and good pay. As weird as this sounds, I'm just hungry all the time especially because I can't leave to get something to eat. 

I've also started a new art class and despite my hatred for it, I can't seem to shake it. I enjoy it but it frustrates me to no end. I've chosen to oil paint a stone house in the forest in the middle of fall. It's going to come out wonderful I hope. I have ten more weeks to find out. 

I need a new phone because I dropped mine less than a foot and now there's a chunk missing from the front screen and it aggravates my ear when I talk on the phone. (iPhone 4). Maybe it's time for an upgrade. 

I need to make some friends stat. Because I don't feel that I fit in here and its just space. I don't know what I'm doing with my life or at this community college. I hate all my classes and yeah. I'm just so positive.

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean



Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Friends For The Keeping

I got my coworker written up today. Which basically means it was a good day. It may sound mean but I just can't help the satisfaction I feel when I know I got her in trouble. Well really her own mouth got her in trouble. Can't wait to work with her again next week. If that's not tense, I don't know what is.

I woke up late today and didn't have to worry about anything. It was pretty amazing. I literally woke up, and then watched a movie. Then I had to get ready for work.

I love having a friend that just wants to hang out, get coffee and chill in a park at like almost 10 at night. If you suggest this I will probably make you my new best friend and love you for a week.

I also love friends that have the patience to sit there with you and figure out how to work skype because I am a moron. If you have patience then we should be best friends.

I miss my friends. I miss everything that I can't have right now. I want to sit and cry because I guess I've been such a bully and haven't known it. And now people are avoiding me because they don't want to get 'punched in the arm' like what the actual fuck, I thought I was old enough to know when to punch someone in their fucking face or not. I just actually can't handle it right now. This post has to be cut short because my feelings are overwhelming me right now and I just need to go sit in the corner and cry over the fact that I've been an oblivious asshole.

Til The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

A Sight For Sore Eyes

I had such a busy day today. And I realized that coffee, unlike every other time I've drank it, makes me crack out.  It was extremely funny and If you want to see it bring me some coffee. (lol don't. I don't know how long it lasts)

 My day has been much of nothing, If anything less of extremely boring. I didn't do my homework for English Comp. I'm behind in Math. I have no idea whats going on in Human Origins. My life's a bit of a mess at the moment. (so is my room).

There is no class tomorrow so I plan on staying up all night watching movies. YAY!

Til The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Monday, September 23, 2013

Procrastination, An Addicting Sickness

Last night I was too incredibly lazy so I forwent doing my Movie app and Analysis class paper. The result was getting up at 6 AM and doing two pages worth of unedited complete bullshit probably. Who knows if there was even sentences? I know I don't. And while I was up, I did some laundry. Because really why not?

I hate my math class and I think that maybe I was supposed to do some homework or something. Maybe I'll save that til' tomorrow morning yeah? Get up at 4? Get in a good hour and a half of work? Lol, I could get a semi-decent amount of sleep if I went to bed right now. Though people are actually talking to me and it's exciting.

TV fills the empty voids of things that normal humans are supposed to have like love and nourishment. It's okay I like not having to deal with other peoples shit.

I'm not sure of what else to write. I guess today was a pretty decent day.

Til The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Sunday, September 22, 2013

And With This Gift

Music is amazing.

There is nothing better, it's everything you could ever want. And it never disappoints.(Usually)

Today has been frustrating like every other day. I rarely have the patience to try to remember every little forgettable detail.

I want to begin writing again but I have no inspiration right now. Besides the fact that today was the first day of fall. That might spur something up. I need someone to tell me something completely different and amazing to write about. Otherwise I'll just sit here bored and alone with my big empty mind.

I just want to sit and think about everything and nothing. I really want to sit and people watch, maybe create new characters. What I really want to do is take a crapton of  pictures. (Without looking extremely creepy of course.) I just want someone to sit with me and we can take pictures together. I can read my writings to them and they can tell me they're amazing or terrible. I want someone who understands the shackles that pull my heart underwater. That understands the dark fog that clouds my thoughts and happiness.

I'm torn between wishing someone would tell me it's okay and wishing someone would explain that it's not okay. I need to be told due to the fact that I cannot think for myself.

(Crappy Reference Time) It's like at work when I see a pair of bright red boots that we only have in my size. I obviously want them. I want them so bad that if someone came in and bought them I would be devastated. Though on the other hand, I don't need them. Nor do I have anything that would match really. So I'm not going to buy them and when someone else does, I'm still going to be upset.

I also feel that everyone around me is upset with me. Like, I'm sorry I didn't realize how much of a disappointment I was. I don't understand what I did wrong. And maybe it's just me because it usually is, still, how would I know though?

I want so much, but I just don't reach for it.

Til The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Saturday, September 21, 2013

The Life In Her Is Gone

I guess I remembered to post again. Life is just a bunch of I guess's right now.

There's nothing too constant in my life right now and I don't really know what to do about it. I, I just want new friends and I don't want it to be complicated. (But when is anything not complicated?)

Times like these, it's really hard to record my day because I feel so absolutely alone and lonely. It's so hard to be enthusiastic when I can feel the emptiness around me, when I can hear the swarming doubts running a muck.

I really just want someone to sit next to me (be careful my bed is already broken) and tell me it's all going to be okay one day. It's alright to be so confused about everything right now and they'll be there for me. We can talk about everything and nothing. We can discuss my impending paper I have yet to write to what music I listen to depending on my mood. I just want someone to listen to anything I have to say because it's so frustrating to keep it all inside. I want someone to sit there and awkwardly watch me ugly cry because they don't know if it would be better to give me space or hug me. I just want a friend.

I wanted to be happy. I guess I really did. But when do I really get what I want? The twisting in my stomach, a constant reminder of what I can't have. It's so rare for me to really laugh these days and people take it for granted everyday.  I think when people look at me while I stare off into space sitting at that table in the busy hallway that I'm sad. I know I don't look happy. I don't want to put on a fake face like everyone else, who really cares if I'm happy or not?

I'm painting my friend a couple of small things for his new apartment. (small really does mean small because I cannot paint for shit) I hope he likes them because I truly have no idea what he likes and I am not painting a whole portrait of ice. He's probably the only person who makes sense right now, I'm grateful for his guidance and commentary. If he was anyone else I wouldn't paint shit for them. I just really hope he likes them. I haven't even started them yet too.

Til The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Friday, September 20, 2013

A Lapse in Time

So, I guess this is just going to be a once in a while thing. (Maybe just when I remember to do it)

Right about now, I feel so sick, tired, vulnerable, and practically about to cry.

I'm angry right now because I just don't have the patience for anyone's stupidity and lack of motion at a reasonable speed. I get frustrated extremely easily and that's probably one of the things I hate the most about myself.

I'm sick because I hate myself. Sometimes it's hard to even think of anything else.

Overall, I'm just upset because I feel extremely trapped. I have no where to go, no one to go to. I feel so isolated all the time. Keeping busy distracts me but it won't work forever. I'm so sick of being upset over someone who apparently doesn't care about the friendship we had. And i'm incredibly vulnerable to it. I can't control that every time I see her I get this overwhelming pang of sadness and I kinda just want to cry. It takes my breath away and leaves me unnerved. I want to move on, make new friends. But it's so hard to do that right now because I haven't moved away, I'm so close and it's scary. I'm constantly reminded of everything we did everywhere I go. A movie of a sorts playing different scenes throughout our friendship. I'm upset and I'll probably get over it eventually. But for now, I'm stuck. Constantly worrying about what I did that could have been so bad for her to cut off connections with me and physically avoid me. Maybe a part of me doesn't want to know and that's why every time I see her I slide away just before the tears get the better of me. (or anyone else can witness them). *sigh* If you happen to be reading this (you know who you are) I really can't say I give a shit. I guess you have to know how I feel somehow. Maybe it'll make you feel GUILTY. And as bad as this may sound, I kind of hope you do. Because that's all I've been feeling.

On the only happy note right now Fall is approaching quickly. Coffee, sweater weather, pumpkins, Halloween, the leaves. It's amazing and I can't wait to sit and just revel in its wonderfulness. (alone probably)

Til The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Monday, September 16, 2013

Burning Betrayal

So I kind of forgot about this, and me doing nothing all summer got in the way(mostly Tumblr). I've obtained a job and started my first semester at college. (hey look, I did SOMETHING this summer.) But it's not really like it matters, no one really reads this anyway right? It's just a way for me to get things off my chest and maybe remember what I ate that day because my memory really is terrible. 

There's not much to be caught up on, I lost a best friend. I have no other friends. I have no money. I have the internet and that's all I need.(There's actually a horrifying truth to this) I kind of wish I had some internet friends. It really wouldn't matter who we were because there would probably be no chance of ever meeting. *Sigh*. I just want something for once in my life to be great and intense and fantastic. I'll let you know when that happens. 

I'm still writing, though my motivation to do anything these days is waning. Except for maybe my school work, I try to get it done right before class. (Old habits die hard. Once a procrastinator, always a procrastinator). Poetry frustrates me but when it flows it flows well. 

I've been so wrapped up in every single depressed thing that's been going on since last year. And since I don't have anyone to talk to about it really it just keeps building up inside. If you tell me my shoe is untied I will probably break down crying, its just going to happen. Either run away quickly or lend me your shoulder and plan to listen to my rants. Bring tissues please. 

I really just need someone to talk to. 

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

 



Sunday, July 14, 2013

Ignorance is Bliss

I must be a forgetful person or something. I knew this blog was going to be a task to keep. I knew eventually I would start to get careless and lenient on my postings. But no matter what, I'm still going to post. Whoo!

Today was lazy day (arent they all?)

I didn't want to get up at all! And then I went to the movies and saw World War Z. It was a good movie. Though next time I'm definitely going by myself. The perks about going with a parent is you usually don't pay. I mean it would have been fine if I did. But whatever.

I watched 13 going on 30 earlier and it was awesome because its like a blast from the past. And the soundtrack is amazing. I'm currently writing and jamming to 80's music! Yay

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Can It Be?

Did I really forget to post last night? Actually I did. I was so busy, it was my little sister's 5th birthday party and I guess I was so tired I forgot.

Yesterday, was a good day. People loved my art wall idea, and I've read my story (what I have of it so far) to a couple people and they love it. I'm excited and its so cool to be this pumped to write.

I ate a lot of cookies and meatballs yesterday, they were amazing.

I'm still full.

Till The Sun Rises (Or Sets),

Sarah Jean

Friday, July 12, 2013

The Natural High

So, this just might be the earliest I've posted yet! And I'm thinking about going to bed soon. The earliest that I've ever gone to bed this summer.

Today was cleaning day, yay. The party's tomorrow and my mom was like listen, we clean or die! Jk jk, we clean.

And then I wasted the night away (you sung that didnt you?) watching hilarious vine videos and now my mom thinks I'm high. Could be worse I guess.

HAVE A WONDERFUL NIGHT

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Beautiful Surprises

So today I went to visit my cousin at her book store. My friend is sick so she kinda bailed. I walked in and she was like 'Are you waiting to be helped?" and I was like "Wow, you don't recognize me?" and it was like instant word vomit with a bit of "oh my god, you're not who I think you are?" And a bit of "you look 25" (lol, 17 here.) It was amazing and short, but I got to spend time with books. Who wouldn't want to spend time with books, they're amazing. LIKE ME. (lol jk). I was going to buy some books and then she was like, here happy Graduation and now I have two free books and that's like Christmas because I'm broke as a MF and I love reading. It sucks to be me.

I did nothing for the rest of the day, though I was at the bookstore for the majority of the day.

I did laundry actually, that counts as being productive. I did TWO loads. AND folded them. I didn't put them away yet though. That's too much work for one day. Tomorrow. Tomorrow.

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Don't Wait For Anything

I'm late again, sorry. Today I worked for three hours and stuffed a shit ton of papers into envelopes. Fun times. Fun times.

I'm going to visit my cousin at her bookstore tomorrow. I didn't tell her I was coming so I don't know if she'll be there. If she isn't then I'll make the short trip again and just buy a book. If she is, then I can't wait to catch up again.

I'm still cleaning my room right now. I can't concentrate on anything right now. It's pretty bad.

I better go do something. Who knows when I'll actually go to sleep. Yesterday it was 3AM.

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

P.S. I just found a lightning bug in my room though my door is closed and so are the windows. Weird. I saved him and let him free to be with his family. How awesome are I?

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Speak The Truth

I went job hunting today! And I was successful in getting applications for five of them! Yay its a start.

Nothing fantastical happened today. Well, I didn't stay inside all day, that was a plus.

Tomorrow I get to sub-work I guess you could call it. Great pay for 9-5ish. wonderful!

And hopefully Thursday I can go see my cousin at her bookstore. I'm bringing my friend and it'll be the first roadtripish place we went this summer! Yay for trying new things.

Well, this has been a real shitty post and I have to get up early tomorrow.

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Monday, July 8, 2013

Acceptance Is A Glorious Thing

Acceptance, it can either make someone feel incredibly happy or exile them. Thank god it wasn't the latter. I finally reached out for real, to my biological brother. I was crying and scared the whole time. Scared that I wouldn't be accepted. Though he was as excited as I was as we discussed our first meeting in person. I'm not telling my mom because I don't know that she's fully on board with all of this. Though I will be 18 in August, I feel that I can make these kinds of decisions on my own.

I also feel exiled for another reason. Here, I have no friends. No one to confide in. And I know I'm being extreme. I have maybe two friends. All the others I don't really communicate with. I don't understand why everyone feels the need to ignore me, I don't know what I did to deserve it. If they would just tell me, I would either fess up to it or deny it. Problem solved. Move on. Though it's not happening that way. Let's just ignore her no matter now many times she tries to reach out to you and yeah I know you're reading my messages and things like that. It shows when you open them, smarty. I'm all alone here. And I'm so tired of it. So tired of sitting home by myself for weeks on end because I have no one to go out with. How do I even make new friends? Either I already know everyone or they're total douchewads.

I don't understand anything anymore.

God, I'm going to go crawl in a corner and cry (again).

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Sunday, July 7, 2013

Craving Love

Well, I don't quite understand anything anymore. I'm so confused all the time and it's not healthy. I feel sick all the time and I'm almost always worried. Worried about what? That is a wonderful question. I have no idea. 

Today, I mainly watched Teen Wolf again because what else do you do on Sundays? That's right, nothing. I drove home and it wasn't bad. I got here in one piece. Wonderful. 

I've been going through all my writings (all incomplete by the way) and they're all cliche. The girl gets the guy and all that BS. I need new things to write about. Completely different things. Like murder mystery or something incredibly across the spectrum. 

I'm craving it again. That odd desire to be with someone. Completely unknown to me as I've never even had a boyfriend. I just don't understand, I can't even keep friends. I'm afraid I'm a complete train wreck and I don't know how to fix myself. I wish I could, wish I knew how. Sometimes I feel like there's something wrong with me. 

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Saturday, July 6, 2013

Train Wrecks Aren't Pretty

I've realized something incredibly important today. I don't belong anywhere. I don't have a place where I feel safe, at home, whatever it is. It kinda sucks.

I'd like to say today was more productive, but it wasn't. When is it ever? Unless you count finishing season one of Teen Wolf accomplishing. Yay me. I did write most of my thank you cards out though. That's an accomplishment.

I got to spend time with another friend that I haven't seen in a while. It was fun and our weirdness collides and it's always a good time with her. Especially at the movies. Today was pretty much a suckass day. Maybe tomorrow will be better? Probably not. I'm not ready for life to come at me with full force. I'm not ready to be an adult and be responsible. I just want to be a kid again. Was I ever?

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Friday, July 5, 2013

Music To My Ears

Another ending to an awesome day. I swear, sleep is for the weak. I don't even go to sleep before midnight. It's whatever. 

I spent the majority of the day on Netflix because that shit is the bomb dot com. Addicting as hell. All I do at night is watch movies. What is sleep? Tonight it's Atlantis and Captain America. It's whateva. 

I got to go to Barnes and noble. (My secret love) and spend time with a friend I haven't seen in a good long time. And then crashed a birthday party with another friend. Pool time and cool wine. ( there was no wine. It just rhymed). I think ice cream late at night is becoming a habit. A bad habit. But it's so good! Maybe I should start exercising. (God knows I need to). Well today was eventful. And partially well spent. I'm glad I put myself out there for once and jumped at the chance of uncomfortableness. Yay me! 

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean 

Thursday, July 4, 2013

And As It Comes To An End

I can hear the fireworks from my window. And I kind of wish that I was watching them. Sitting out in the uncomfortable heat. Waiting forever for them to finally start and then have the night end so quickly, like time had passed in a second. This is probably the second year that I haven't gone to see fireworks. Spending the night of the 4th of July alone.

Lately, (Today) I've been getting so sick of being alone. Like what the hell, am I not good enough to hang out with you. I don't want to accuse you of anything but maybe it's just me. I'm probably being paranoid and whatever. I'll get over it. Like I always do. I'm so tired of hearing about your girlfriend or your boyfriend, or it's complicated and he's definitely not my boyfriend but he thinks so crap. I'm tired of being alone alone. I want someone to be weird with, as I said yesterday. Because anything less than weird just won't cut it.

I'm sun-burnt again. Maybe I should just stay inside. I don't like the beach anyway. Today was fun, though I'm so tired of being called things. It puts me in a bad mood (obviously) and yeah I'm not going to be walking around with a freaking smile on my face. I mean seriously? I'm not bothering you with my pouting, leave me alone. Okay, great.

I'm just so aggravated these days and I need to take it out on someone or something. And hitting a pillow is the stupidest thing ever. That just makes you look ridiculous and retarded. I'm going to start doing yoga soon. Hopefully that will take some of the stress away or something like that.   I don't know, whatever.

Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Realization of the Fabrication

I forgot to post! Actually, I was out having so much fun that I missed my nightly deadline. I'll still be up for a few hours, so it's not that big of a deal.

I've applied for community college! I'm finally digging myself a path for who knows what. At least it's a start. And frankly, I'm tired of sitting home doing nothing. Learning comes easy to me, and it's something I can welcome back into my life.

I finally drove to my Dad's house by myself. It's a great accomplishment, though I have no idea how to get home. Whoo!

I also bought new illustration pens from Michaels. I don't really do that kind of thing. I do more of a free handed huge mash up of typography of a sort I guess. I just like the way they write.

Tonight was the most fun I've had in a while. I'm back in my comfort zone. Where I used to call home. I have more friends here than I do at my mom's house. It's hard to integrate yourself into group and then extract yourself just as quickly.  Here, there's tons of things to do with people but not enough money to do them. And at my moms, I always have money and no one to spend it with. It's a great burden and a savior all in one.

I can't take being made fun of anymore. Even if it's in good intentions. I'm belittled in everything I do and I hate it so very much. Besides being made fun of, I feel that I'm always so very alone. I can feel it when I spend hours on end by myself. And I can feel it now, in a house full of lively people. When I first moved here, I thought that I actually started to fit in, that this was where I belonged.

I don't think I could have been more wrong. I haven't found the place where I fit yet. Right now I'm just wandering around trying to make myself fit somewhere else.

My 13 year old brother teases me for not having a boyfriend. I'm sorry, I wasn't aware I needed one to be myself. His girlfriend shaved half her head, I don't know if that's such a great thing to flaunt. Yes, I'd like someone to spend time with. To like my weirdness and be as cool as me. (In the weird way). I'd like that. But I'm okay without it. Hey, what does he know? He's a little squirt.


Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean


Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Courage Is A Dangerous Thing

When will life stop being so uneventful? When will the real fun begin? When will I have more than one friend, at least ones that want to be around me. God, does life suck so much that I feel the need to physically change all my surroundings so very often. I hate change, and yet I crave it so much I can't sit still.

I feel that I need to make a major change in my life, and yes I have made a few of those already. I need to find me. I don't know who I am, I don't know anything. I am so confused that it brings me to the brink of sickness. I hate to think about it. I hate to feel it. Because I can, all the time. In everything I do.

Today I was actually awake before noon. What an accomplishment! I even ironed my dress, because YES, I had an interview. I don't really know how it went, as it was my first ever interview. I guess I'll find out on Friday or Monday. This morning I went to the mall to get my nails done and it was eerie. The mall was so empty, partly because it was ten thirty in the morning and also it was a week day. I might just start shopping earlier. No lines is a great thing.

I've started writing my ongoing book again. Chapter two is still giving me trouble but chapter three looks like it might be heading in a good direction. It's exciting seeing something mold beneath your very own eyes. It's probably horrible and whatnot but I like it. Even if it's for my eyes only, I can live with that.


Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean 

Monday, July 1, 2013

A First For Everything

Number 30 on my summer bucket list is to create and keep a Summer Blog. A place where I can keep all my daily activities, memories, pictures and even other things on my 'bucket list'. Graduating high school makes it feel that this isn't really summer and it just leads into the rest of my life. (Which it does, but I don't want to dwell on that.) My top priority right now is to find a job (Number 43) that way I can afford to do all the other things on my summer bucket list. Today was uneventful, until I decided that it was time to get out of bed around 12. I was unproductive until about 3, when I got ready and went shopping for the perfect shirt to match my skirt for my interview tomorrow. I stumbled across a beautiful striped blue and white dress so I bought that instead. (My lonely skirt is still in the drawer). I also got a great buy on a purple tee. I bought part of my little sister birthday present for Friday and also a Wreck This Journal (Number 44). Abby helped me start that off and now she can't wait to pour coffee on it. (Little kids are adorable). I'm currently applying for community college and writing questions for my interview tomorrow.


Till The Sun Rises,

Sarah Jean